LS

LS has always been the way of life ever since I made the choice 1 year back. Innocently joining the organization which is draining my life like I have never felt before. 2 months more, just 2 months more and it will all be over. Negative qi is what we call it, the aura of spreading negativity which never fails to dampen the mood of any occasion when we come together. 三句不離本行。That is precisely the situation right now. Besides work, it is either too tiring to bring up a common topic, or the strained relationship has made it increasingly difficult to do so.

We are all tired, so very tired of it but lets look at the bright side of life! ITS JUST 2 MORE MONTHS!! Whats that compared to the past year of shit we have been through man. So lets hang on with life and make the fullest out of it. We should perhaps just leave work aside and get back to the wonderful old times we had, bring back our true selves and enjoy life instead of dreading it.


Its a bold step I am going to take despite being an important academic year for me. Love is still too profound but trying out should be pretty interesting. My heart jumps faster when I see her, mouth widen into a smile automatically and endorphins rushing through my body which just makes me feel so good. Everything just seem to fall into place as long as I see her. Every lecture without fail, I would peek at her from a distance since last year, hoping that she would catch a glimpse of me. I never knew if she realized but I believe the answer's a no. Its about time I should confess since I read off somewhere which feelings for a crush never gets past 4 months and its been almost half a year now for my case.

She is not a total stranger to me, in fact, very close to me due to our work(sucks). She is exactly like any other normal girl off the streets which you would not normally take notice in. However, she just resonates with the frequency of my heart. I just cannot help my self from falling into it. Although it is not as strong as in novels, I just feel it there, hanging, and just there. Love is too complicated, too abstract after all. 1 thing i know, I really really really want her to be happy and know that I will be there for her :).

It's easy to love someone but hard to let someone love you back. That's the challenge of love. Fighting without knowing how to win,this has been always going on and on